Deus ex mentis

Western religions, insomuch as they are understood in literal and/or rigidly dogmatic terms, are comfort systems designed to answer the unexplainable and to self-promulgate. Idolatry of a singular omnipotent deity demonstrates prepubertal cognitive and analytical development in favor of deferential behavior to an external higher power rather than one’s own self, self-worth, or internal truths. Conflict between these external directives and internal instincts, when not sociopathic in nature, leads to unnecessary and unproductive angst and guilt which could be remedied by adopting an outlook synchronous to the extent of one’s own self-awareness.

you can’t have

i gave her my heart
i gave her my core
i have her the essence of everything i was

and she took it
and she teased it
and she crushed it so gentle

and now i'm alone
and now i'm afraid
and now i'm angry at all the mistakes i've made
and now i'm angry at her stupid games

and i'll never be
the same
again

i'll never want to love another

i'll never want to capitalize or punctuate
because i think why bother

and i deserve more
did i deserve this?
i deserve love
and i deserve bliss

and she doesn't...me
because i am mad
and i could hurt

and i do hurt

so


sorry charlie
them's the brakes
some folks cry
others fume
i fume
now
    
but you can't have my heart back

Tomfoolery Report 4/12/07

Full house again tonight, although they were one of the quietest crowds we’ve had so far. I’ll just prefer to think of them as having intently listened. The cast had a funky energy tonight. They stayed up very late the night before partying, and they were possibly a little low because of it.

Tomfoolery Report 4/11/07

Another full house tonight. They weren’t as loud as last night but they did enjoy the show—a good crowd overall. Deb skipped more than half of the first verse in “Wernher Von Braun,” she said the pages stuck together and she panicked. Also the martini glass broke on the stem when I set it down on the prop table US of the piano. More noise from backstage—props clunking and people talking/whispering—but I don’t remember exactly when.

Tomfoolery Report 4/1/07

Best crowd ever tonight! They laughed at everything, even when not appropriate. Or rather, especially when not appropriate. Full house. Hank said that about 35 of them booked months ago as soon as they learned of the Tom Lehrer show. Only flub was Nick saying “friendship” instead of “love” before “I Got It from Agnes,” but he covered well. Oh yes, also Robin added a couple beats in a measure of “New Math.” I did have to shush the excessive noise backstage during my song “She’s My Girl.” They really need to shut the heck up back there. I noticed a strip light bulb was burned out and replaced it after the show. We didn’t get a 5 minute warning for intermission. The gunshot light cues were much better tonight. Robin forgot that yesterday was Lehrer’s birthday so he was still 78/25C tonight. If Lehrer were alive today, he’d be rolling over in his grave…. Oh, er, nevermind.

The Reluctant Grownup: In Defense of Organized Religion

My cousin’s wife, so I guess that would make her my cousin-in-law, is an avid blogger. She hasn’t been blogging as long as I have but she writes more and her writing is a bit deeper than my blog. 😉

Anyway, here’s an interesting article about organized religion. I’ve been thinking about these issues myself lately and it’s good to get another person’s thoughts on this from inside her brain.

http://gilliangaladriel.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!6BBC33760B6EF0BC!1227.entry

That Sat Mat a Go-Go

So we’re definitely adding a Saturday matinee on the 14th. That makes 7 shows in 6 days, quite possibly the longest contiguous number of shows I’ve done yet.

Benedict has good taste in cars

The Pope’s previous car, a 1999 VW Golf, is being auctioned off on eBay for charity. Here’s the link. I’m not Catholic but I can agree with them on one thing: VW Golfs. 🙂 What a promotion for VW.