The Sad Songs in My Mind

by philrw
351 words - 2 min read
Personal
No, I’m not okay. I can’t focus right now. I hurt too much. I know I owe work my full attention when I’m at work, but today is just a very bad day for that. And to be quite honest, I don’t want to see “happy” in front of me either, so if you’re in a good mood, don’t try to rub it off on me. I may just take you down with me. Romantic love is stupid and it sucks. I’m tired of Hollywood trailers, billboard ads, and everything else telling me what my life should be.
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Things are Unright

by philrw
109 words - 1 min read
Personal Rants and Raves
This still sucks. I don’t know how she is. I don’t even know where she is. I haven’t seen her, I haven’t heard from her, I haven’t received any form of communication from her in more than what normally should be a reasonable interval. Is she all right? Is she laying in a ditch somewhere? Was she in an accident? I don’t know. This is not how things should be. I’m not good at this kind of limbo. Yet this is what I said I would do and I am a man of my word.
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Social Network

by philrw
222 words - 2 min read
Film/TV/Theater
Jesse Eisenberg gives a really solid performance. He’s the guy you love to hate while you simultaneously feel sorry for him. The rest of the film was also well-cast. Justin Timberlake plays a convincingly smooth-talking pseudo-psycopath; Bryan Barter rounds out the male leads as the jilted ex-best friend and one of the more relatable, grounded characters. The film is many things, one of which is an examination of the patho-personality and psychology behind nature of our society’s idealized success fantasy. There was an abundance of high-level techie talk in the beginning of the film, and some very fast-paced conversation between the characters.
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A Sign

by philrw
22 words - 1 min read
Personal

This very clearly stared me down on the way to Grey Gardens callbacks. Yes, it’s a sign. But is it a Sign?

fix the one you have

"It's A Science Experiment"

by philrw
202 words - 1 min read
Tech

Just like Doc and Marty, I’m doing a little science experiment of my own. It could also end in a spectacular exploding train wreck. I’m going to try integrating my blog, Twitter, and Facebook. These things should happen:

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Am I Where I Am

by philrw
75 words - 1 min read
Poetry
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Life is tough where I am now.
Nobody calls, the phone sits still.
    
I pretend to go about business
To which I sentenced myself long ago.
    
But I want to sleep
And cry.
    
No one can touch my heart,
It is cold and aches
When others approach.
    
Still sits the phone, calls nobody.
Now am I where tough is life.

Nothing New Here, Move Along

by philrw
46 words - 1 min read
Personal Tech

Nothing to see here, folks. Move along. Go about your business.

However, I am seriously considering getting a better home router since my Linksys went on the fritz for half a day yesterday. I upgraded the firmware, so maybe that will help. Hmm… methinks Sonicwall, perhaps?

It's Not All Right

by philrw
68 words - 1 min read
Personal

I miss her greatly today.

I want to hear her voice again, see her smile, feel her touch.

I thought I would be all right.

But I was wrong.

I distract my self with anything – everything I can think of. But the emptiness is still there, shouting through the din, slowly devouring me with its silent pain. Always.

Always.

A huge part of my heart is missing.